s.p.e.e.c.h.l.e.s.s

aku dh agk. bnde ny akn terjadi. and bnde tu akn kwa dr mlut dia.

i know he deserve someone better than me.

i mean wayyy better than me.

bcos he is daym 'perfect' ! too perfect for me.

hmm. aku redha. :)

aku bkn slhkan dia. dia tk pnh bersalah dlm hal ny.

aku yg kjam sgtt. bea dia tgu aku lama.

and aku pnh tipu dia.

aku tade niat pon sbnrnyer.

sumpah tade niat pon nk skitkan hati dia.

tp aku trpkse. aku tkt dia sakit hati,
tp aku dh pon bwt silap.
aku menyesal sgtt. tp aku dh tk bole nk wt ppe. 
aku dh tk bole nk undur masa tuh. :(
aku SAYANG dia, aku sayang sgt dkt dia.
aku tk pnh tpu psl soal hati and perasaan aku dkt dia.
dia terlamapu baik utk aku.
dia sanggup tgu aku dh almost 2 years.
aku tk pnh lost contact dgn dia. :')
haihh. sedihh. tp nk bwt cmne . :')
aku redha. maybe bkn jodoh ktorg utk bersama.
aku akn sentiasa doakan dia bahagia,
dia akan sentiasa ada dalam hati aku.
aku tkkn pnh lupekan dia. :)
itu janji aku. aku msh igt lg.
time mule2 jpe dia. dkt stadium hoki. huhu,
jersey ktorg same number.
number 8. hee. double 8.
aku tkkn pnh lupe. 
he such a nice guy,
mmg untung sgtt sape dpt dia.
aku dh ckup bersyukur krne pnh mnjdi org yg dia sayang.
itu dh ckup. hope ktorg tkkn lost contact. 
i rely hope that he'll happy with her. :)
aminnn... and i hope he choose the right person.
now he became my BestFriendsForever.
omg ! mcm tk pcye. huhu,
tp terpaksa pcye and trime jgk.
aku redha, :))

p/s :  i'm happy if u're happy. ..

i akn ttp sayang you 'k', my new bff ! :')

       

faith .

omg ! smlm lpk dkt barra shah alam. lme jgk lpk sne.
bt thn today aku dpt tw yg si 'dia' pn lpk barra. gilee ah.
at the same time and  same the place.
bt ktorg bole tk prsn satu same lain.
sedihh. :( klo tk bole lpk skly.
rugi gile tk usha surrounding tyme tuh.
sbb tlmpau rmy sgtt lelaki. mls plak nk usha.
tatau plak yg si dia ade disitu. haihh.
tade jodoh la katakan. :') hee. tp tape. redha. :)

i really hope that we can hanging out
 with each other one fine day. :)

Being a great partner . :)

Someone who knows what you need before you say it.
Someone who knows when to laugh and when to cry.
Someone who truly listens when you have something to say.
Someone that's there for you during the good and bad times.
Someone who is caring .
Someone who loves you with all their heart and soul.
Someone who is interested in reality and not as a fashion display.
Someone who is honest.
Someone you can trust them like a sibling, confide in like a friend but most of all, love as the great lover they are.
Someone who is open and responsive.
Someone who is never critical and ill-tempered in respect to your needs.
Someone who knows when things have to be compromised in the relationship.
Someone who understands listening is a key, but using what is heard is even more important.
Someone who's there for you no matter what.
Someone who is trustful.
Someone who is a friend.
Someone who gives a shoulder to cry on.
Someone with a great sense of humor.
Someone who has things in common with you.
Someone who takes time to listen and enjoy you for who you are and tries not to make you something else.
Someone with a constant open ear, open heart, and open mind to accept and love people for who the really are.
Someone who will always be there to support your ideas without argument and love you for everything that you are.
Someone that can get a point across without yelling.
Someone that remembers all the cute stupid stuff you love.
Someone that has a personality with qualities you don't have yourself, but admire greatly in them.
Someone who realizes you're two separate people, and appreciates the differences.
Someone who can sense a mood problem, and not take it personally.
Someone who understands the difference between PMS, and a real problem.
Someone who can make you happy when your sad.
Someone who tells you the truth even if you don't want to hear it.
Someone who will not hurt you intentionally.
Someone who is a sweet, romantic person who cherishes you no matter what.
Someone that you can laugh with.
Someone who you can feel comfortable with and that you don't care what kind of weird stuff they see you do because you know they will still love you no matter what.
Someone who will love you in spite of your little idiosyncrasies.
Someone that would do anything to show how much they care.
Someone who is a great pal, a great kisser, and a great lover!
Someone who allows you to be yourself around them.
Someone who will respect you.
Someone who cherishes your hopes and is kind to your dreams.
Someone who knows you're not perfect, but treats you as though you are.
Someone who listens with their heart and is your source of inspiration.


this is lovely . :)

fridayy .

today cutii ! best. hee. clas tade.
but today bosann gile nk mmpos.
stay dkt umah je. dala tk blk.
kne siapkn assgnmnt. tp mls gle nk stat. haha. haihh.
dgn tutorial yg byk gilee. duhh. -.-
today my mood is not so okay.
bcos ade hamba Allah sorg ny yg bwt aku pns hati lg.
tk hbs2 nk cr psl. ya Allah. kau tabahkan lah hatiku ini. :')
smoge aku dpt hadapi manusie2 ny dgn hati yg terbuka.

i hope i can be strong. aminn. :)

yeah , u can do it nora ! :D hee.

exhausted .

i need a long rest ! omg. ini dr smlm tk tido. gle ah.
nw dh pkul 7 pg. and im still blogging. :) haha.
tahan gile mata aku today. mimie ckp dh pucat gile muke aku.
tp tk tau knpe mcm tk bole tido. byk pk mayb. duhh.
mati lg baik la. EHEH.
keje tutorial DONE. hee.
tmrw class pkul 830 pttnyer. tp sbb ade taklimat ptptn,
so dorg cncel kn clas , maybe laa. haha.
hrp2 dy btl2 cncel kn clas klo tak pgsannn.
dala tk tido lg ny. mata da bngkak gle.
2 3 hari ni, sjak blk sny. tade mood. -.-
tk tau knpe. haihh. tensionn semacam jee.
aku pon pelikk. hee.
tp nk bw mcmane ? hdp msti diteruskan . :)

ok laa. i have to sleep ! class bsok 230, microeconomics.

adios peeps ! :))

pissed off !

omg. y i can still feel the PAIN ? 

the pain that ... grrhh. i don't want this. pls. :( 

pls don't do this to me. knpe manusie kjam ? yaAllah. kau tabahkan lah hati ku. 

org tk pnh nmpk perit yg aku rse. just tw judge aku mcm tu je. n thn bls blk kt aku.

wtf weh ? kau tk pnh btl2 selami hati aku. kau jst nmpk dr luaran. 

ape yg berlaku. tp kau tk tau ape aku rse. hmm. smue sama ! 

msty korg pk bkn2 psl aku. tp the facts !

korg tk tau ape yg aku rse. aku sunyi .

aku tnggung sgle ksdhn aku sorg2 . tade sp pnh nk amek ksah. duhh. aku tk mntk smpti . 

tp.. jst mluahkn ape yg tpndm. nw im just being my self. 

aku lyn smue org. hak aku lah. aku try face smue ny. yeah ! i don't need anybody in my heart ! 

i can live alone here ! i have my friends and family .

i don't need a lover ! fuckfuckfuck them ! 

yeah. choose to NOT LOVING me. that's good for you. 

bcs i'll be dissapear again ! and again. :)

i wish that i cud just die than have to face all this fucking thingy. -.- 

p/s : im sory if i have to make u HATE me. bcos that's the best way for us. :)

back to my normal life .

welcome back to UNISEL. :) afte 1 week mid term break, stay kt uma. at last blk sni blk . hee. srnok jgk stay kt umah. mama msk byk. bazaar kt sne BEST. hee. bt at the same time . rndu nk blk unisel jgk. tk bole thn la dduk umah . :( haihh. kple serabut . rndu mama. ksian nk tgl kn mama sorg2. haihh. tp nk wt cmne kn. hidup msti diteruskan. cehh. haha. my life way better here at unisel . bcos here i've my friends that always here by my side to support me . and make me laugh all the time. especially my lovely Housemates ! :) heart them all. 

teman sekecilku. :)

okey. ini adalah diynoo elmoo. haha. dy teman sekecilku. hari tu bru je lpk ngn dy setelah sekian lama. dah 5 thn lbeh kot tak jpe. tp siot je sbb dy msh tak cam aku. ape pny kwn. -.- haha. joke. pdhal dy la yg berlari ngn aku every year since drjh 4 kot. tp msh tak cam aku. diy2. ape laa. hee. dy ny jhat. suke buli aku. hee. jpe ary2 pon dy buli aku. :( jhat kn ? eheh. tade la. joke je. bt sbnrnye mmg btl pn. HAHA. nyah jgn mrh ok syg. hee. dy baik la. dlm fb dy sllu ktuk aku pndk. dy igt dy tnggi sgt. pstu jpe amek kauu. haha. aku lg tnggi ok ! hee. itu saje kot crte psl dy. :) btw, diy.. hope kau akn get back dgn tutt blk ok. aku sntse doakan. jgn sdih2 tw. chill ok. face the fact. and move on. try to forget the past. let the past be past. :) ok nyah ? ♥

youu.

today, u ajk lpk. ok fine. i tak kesah, thn mlm u ckp u wanna fetch me. i tgu pny la lme mmg terbaik. :) srnok tgu u td uh. len kly lmbt la lg. today mmg btl2 mnguji ksbrn i. duhh. dgn mdexx, n thn u lg i kne tgu. huhu. tp tape. sbr jelaa. thn lpk stu tmpt. hmm. i ckp dgn u. bttr u tell me evrthg u wanna tell now. bcos afte ths mmg ssh dah nk jpe. sbb nty i akn blk U blk. em. thn u bwt luahan prsaan. u tell me everything abt ur feeling. that's really impressed me. :') i terdiam. i tak sngka u akn ckp cmtu even kite dah break. i mmg tak sngke prsaan u dkt i still same mcm dlu. i thought u already have sm1 else in ur heart. bt im totally wrong. omg ! dala smlm diy tag i stu vid ny. ckup trse kott. i tkt i mnysl kmudian hari. skt kple memikirkan smue ny. rugi plak tak rkam ape yg u ckp. haha. em2. haihh. hari ini i takkn lupekn smpy ble2. :)

mid term break ! :)

yeah ! im homeee. cuti 1 week. best dpt blk berpuasa dirumah. hee. dgn family, dpt makan masakan mama. :)) way bttr than kt U. duhh. huhu. and.. kt sny pon best. dpt pg bazaar. bazaar kt sny lg best kott. byk choice. dpd kt unisel. tade choice sgt. hrp mnusie je rmy. cuci mata mmg lah best. tp mknn nyer kurang best. HAHA. joke2 ok. heee. smntre dkt sny bole lah pg bazaar hari2. bt thn dah blk sne. tak best lah. dah tatau nk mkn ape. hmm. holiday kali ny tade pg mane. dduk rumah je. agk bosann jgk la kn. everyday facebook-ing je keje. haha. and.. best dpt tido lbeh masa. HAHA. nk kwa pon mcm mls je. nsb lecturer tade bg assgnmnt. hee. sng hidup time cuti ny. and time ny jgk la nk jpe kwn2 smue. nty dah blk U ssh gile nk jpe dorg. especially, cik medexx ku sayangg. kwn yg plg bz pnh aku jmpe. haha. joke beb.  tp at least dpt gk pg bazaar dgn kau today. hee. tak sbr nk tgu this friday. berbuke sama2. :)

him ?

omg ! i saw him today at bazaar. i wish to see him act. and my wish was come true. :') tak sangka gilee dpt jpe dy. tak expect lgsg. dr jauh dah ternampk. it was like , omg! its him. time tu dah menggeletar satu badan. tatau knpe. rasa lemah gile. kple ltut dah menggigil. rse mcm dah tak bole nk berdiri teguh. rindu dy, bt at the same time serious sakit di hati tak sape tau. perit ya amat. tgk dy happy je. itu pon dah bole bwt aku happy. :) dy hanye tau fikir yg aku ny dah ade bf laen, dah ade laky laen, dah tak syg dy, dah lupe kan dy n what so eva shit. dy takkan pnh fhm perasaan aku ! dy tak pnh tw ape yg aku pk , mcmane aku rasa. ble aku t'igt kt dy, n rndu dy sgt2. rasa jealous.... omg!  dy takkn pnh tau tu. yg dy tw hnye lah pk bkn2 psl aku. ble la dy nk brubah. :( haihh. act i miss him so badly. tp aku takkn bgtw dy. sbb aku tanak bg dy hrpn lg. bla ah. u said that u can get someone way btter than me kan. so go ahead. :) i don't even care. i akan sllu berdoa utk kebahagiaan u. that's all from me.


p/s : i don't love you, like i did yesterdayy. :)

friends ?

mcm2 jns mnusie stkat ny aku dah jpe, mcm2 perangai ade. huh. tp aku kesah ape kn. mcm mane pn perangai dorg. aku still bole friends ngn dorg as long as dorg tak cr psl, backstbbrs, or memfitnah aku mcm2. aku on dgn smue org. life baru aku kt unisel pon aku dah jpe agk rmy kwn. housemate, classmate o kwn dr course2 len. dorg smue terbaik. ;D tp aku rndu jgk dkt besties aku. :( siti haida. my bff. i miss her so badly ! n suraya asmadi pon. hmm. rndu gle nk lpk ngn dorg smue. rndu jgk dkt schoolmates. ashie, nuriy, chad, lisa, suzana and all. rndu gle nk bergelak ktwe ngn dorg. :'( tah ape dorg bwt skrg ny. smue da jrg contct. hope prshbtn ktorg akn kekal smpy ble2. :') and also tak lupe pd kawan lelaki. faruq alvin, aliff radzuan, muz mansor , muding gilee , zul , wan , ezad , khai and all. bestt dpt knl ngn korg. :)

asshole .

tolong ah weh. pehal kau ttbe cmny ? prngy masyaAllah. igt kau baik sgtt. tp np prlu putar belit crte kau ? makin ta phm tho aku ngn kau. annoying kau tw tak nk tgk muke kau. dala bajek bgss. eyy tlg lah. astghfirullah . bwt hlg pahale puasa aku je gado ngn kau sllu. knpe kau prlu ckp bnde yg tak betul ? dala mulut kau byk menyakitkan hati org. haih. kau tak penah sdar. kau sje nk amek attntion org kn ? knpe eh ? haih. useless ! go die la weh !

someone .

emm. i miss him! omg! what the hell that im talking about. no no. plss. i don't want him. but i need someone else that can cure the pain inside my heart. the one that can treat me like he treat me, but not like him. i mean not a liar like him! i need someone that can truly being honest with me. honest everything about himself. i don't want to be with a liar again. plss. it really hurt me deeply. it make me suffered enough. but now, honestly tade sape pon dalam hati aku. hati aku kosong. mule2 DIA, thn K. but now aku rasa K dah ade someone else. but kita mane tau hati orang kan. no one would understand. tapi bile tgk wall fb dy. terasa gilee. hmm. tapi dy ckp dy still tgu aku. but... tahla. ssh utk percaya. sape lah aku ny. tade rupe ponn. he can get wayy better than me. aku tanak berharap pada sesape. because aku tw, bile aku berharap time tu plak la org bwt dajal. haihh. complicated life! yg laen plak. geli tho. tlg lah. aku tade prsaan skrg ny. ckp la ppe pon. aku just tgu someone yg dpt bukak blk pintu hati aku ny. that guy would be lucky! :) bkn smue yg annoying pon. cume ade certain je.. eheh. sumpah geli. aku tak bole accpt. haha. lwk jee. kalau stkat nk m'ayat dlm fb, mntk no smue. LAME lahh. sumpah takkan lyn. konon skjap je dah boleh fallen love. haha. Ridiculous! dah ckup masak la ngn prngai lelaki ny. duhh. yg muke suci ny la prngai ... masyaAllah. tatau nk explain cm mane. haihh. dunia dah nak kiamat kot. -.-

puasaaaa ! :)

today is the first day fasting . :) mcm tak caya je dah stat puasa, kjap je masa berlalu, rndu nyer time last year. first time dlm hdup aku berpuasa dgn kwn2. rndu nyer dkt mama. n family. :'( ksiann mama berbuke sorg2 pnye. hmm. and this year msty lg funn than last year. :) i HOPE so! nsb next week dah sem break. 1 week cuti! hooray ! bole berpuasa dirumah. :) bt confm perit pnye nk hadapi, even berpuasa dirumah. haihh. redha jela kann. yaAllah, ya TuhanKu. tabahkanlah hati ku utk menghadapi hari2 yg suram ini. :') semoge tahun ini lebih bermakna daripada tahun lepass. aminn.

Ah Lan Wahsalan Ya ramadhan :)

heart this song. ♥

The Fray - Never Say Never lyrics

Some things we don't talk about

Rather do without and just hold the smile

Falling in and out of love

Ashamed and proud of, together all the while

You can never say never

While we don't know when

But time and time again

Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Picture, you're the queen of everything

Far as the eye can see under your command

I will be your guardian when all is crumbling

I'll steady your hand

You can never say never

While we don't know when

But time, time and time again

Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming

Together again and again

We're growing apart but we pull it together

Pull it together, together again

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

Don't let me go

pray.

i think i miss u. hmm. hope u'll get well soon. i noe now u tgh suffrd gle. haha. mcm lwk plak. pttnyer i glak je sbb u jd cmny. n i shud wish u jst go DIE. hee. bt sorry to say. aku bkn jns cmtu nk mndoakn org mati cpt. aku bkn kjam sgtt smpy nk doakn org tu mati. n fyi, even i hate you (not), and even u've make me hurt n suffered enough. i still gonna pray for you. aku ttp akn sllu doakn  ksjhtraan kau. :) hope u akn get well soon. i've no idea even that's jst ur trick. ;) bt who cares. as long as u hepy doing that, go ahead. :)

hurt.

i realy wonder why im the one who has to feel the pain. the pain that comes from the hole from my chest. its realy hurt me so fucking muchh. :( seriously i can't face him. it so irritating me. hmm. knpe aku yg kene hdpi smue ny? ape slh aku? perit tak terkata. hanya aku sorg yg alaminyer. kau yg bwt aku jd begini. tp knpe? kau brjnjy takkn ulangi kslpn ex ku. ttpi kau masih melakukan bnde yg sama. terima kasih. :) if kau ckp kau still tgu aku. bttr forget abt it. bcos i won't turning back to u. i WON'T. keep ma word. i won't break my promise. i'll forgive for what u've done. but i won't forget till the last of my breath. :) aku akn igt stiap kata2 kau, n perbuatan kau. mcmane kau hncurkan hati aku. aku redha. :) maybe ade hikmah disebalik ape yg berlaku. betapa perit aku rasa, betapa aku menderita. kau takkn pnh tw tu. ape yg kau tw, hny membalas dndm. even punce kte ptus d'sbbkn kau. kau ttp nk bls mcm2 kt aku. uh gosh. wtf weh. tapee. aku trime! karma babe. what goes around will comes around. u'll pay for it. that's for sure. :)

true said.

Big Fat Liar!

kalau menipu kau mmg takkan selamat la weh. serious ckp. ok mmgla manusia tidak penah lari dari melakukan kesilapan. tp kalau kau dah tau bnde tu slh, kau lg nk bwt, pe jadahnyer ? aku pon bkn perfect sgt nk judge org. tp aku tade la plak nk tipu org just utk membanggakan diri aku. org tipu utk kebaikan. bkn utk kebanggaan diri sndri. fuck la weh prngai. one day for sure kau akn trime padahnye. sooner or later. confirm kantoi. kau takkan selamat. bile dah kantoi bru menyesal. tak gune weh. sekali kau menipu maybe org bole terima n maafkan, tp kalau dah byk kali kau wat and kau tak penah nk menyesal. mmg TAK a weh. u wish that other people wud trust youu. bt in ur dream lah! middle finger too u liar!

♥